Let Jesus Be Your Boyfriend | Singleness Series | Karen
We have come to our guest post of the Let Jesus Be Your Boyfriend Singleness Series!!! I can not believe the love that was shown on this series. A lot of women said that this series has helped them out, and it was on time! No words can express how grateful I am for you all, and the bloggers who opened up. Thank you so much! Well here we go loves. Last but not least here is the beautiful Karen!
Hey, I am Karen, a 20 something college student from the Nation’s capital. I have a passion for ministry, medicine and basically anything that has to do with traveling and organizing/planning. I gave my life to Christ about 2 years ago and it hasn’t been the same since. I am on a journey towards finding the version of me that God intended and I seek to inspire all ladies do the same.
I never knew a relationship was what it would take for me to realize that I needed Christ, for me to realize that I was lukewarm and had to fully walk away from the world. I got saved about two years ago but I really did not walk out that salvation until about 10 months ago, right around the breakup with my ex-boyfriend.
I fell for the guy so fast, and I lost part of myself in doing so. I entertained him, knowing that he was not a Godly man and knowing that a relationship with him was probably not what God had in store for me. I really can’t tell you what could have made me so eager to become unequally yoked at the time other than a hardened heart towards God. I never had any peace about the relationship and God began to convict me. Instead of cutting it short, I continued to hold on, thinking that the feeling would go away and that things would get better. Today I am so glad that the conviction did not go away. If it weren’t for the Holy Spirit I would not have had the strength to end it. The truth is, we cannot invite God into sin, instead we must repent and God will make a way for renewal. I literally got on my knees one night and I said to God that I no longer wanted to walk in sin, that I was sorry for disobeying and hurting him, that I was willing for him to break me and renew me. Two weeks after crying out to God, the relationship was over, two weeks after that I got water baptized.
Sometimes I wonder how I even got into all that mess, and the only thing I can think of is being lukewarm. To be totally honest, I was able to throw out my morals when I met this guy because the morals were not built on a strong foundation. I would read my bible and go to church, but had a hardened heart. I never let God completely pierce my heart and renew my mind. I wasn’t in the world but I also wasn’t passionately pursuing God. I remember reading Revelation 3: 16 “ So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I’am about to spit you out of my mouth”. That verse was a slap in the face and a wake up call, I never imagined that God wasn’t content with me pursuing him just a little, God is a jealous God that wants all of me. I realized that I would get hurt by dabbing in the world, and I would never get the fullness of God by only dabbing in the word, so I had to make a decision, God or the World. By God’s grace, I chose the Lord.
Today I can confidently say that I am in love with God, and I am willing to obey all of his commands as a sign of my love for him. If I had stayed in that relationship, I wouldn’t have had the relationship with the Lord that I have today.
I really want anyone who is reading this to be inspired by my story and to know that God loves you. God sees you as a Queen and so will the King he brings to you. You just need to be patient and content in the Lord. Before pursuing relationships, focus on your self-growth; understand your self worth, and your purpose. Relationships will become less of a distraction, as you understand your purpose. I was able to change the way I viewed relationships when I understood the purpose of them. Whoever you end up it will be a leader over you, he is suppose to take care of you and ensure that you reach your God given potential as you help him do the same. Once you understand this, you will see how easy it is to be focused. You don’t want to just attract anyone for any sake, you want someone that will be a good leader and won't deter you from your path. Wait on the Lord; you will always win with him on your side.
Gosh how amazing was that? Such a powerful message. Thank you Karen. I truly pray that you all received the good news through this series. I pray that you all are content with being single, and know that singleness is a gift from God. Take this time to draw closer, and experience the richness of your salvation! I love you with all of my heart. Have a great weekend!