Lay It Down

Before I get into this post I want to say thank you. Thank you for reading Fancy and Fearless. Whether this is your first time here, or you are a frequent reader. It truly means alot to me!

On September 22, 2016 I gave Fancy and Fearless back to the Lord. You see when I first started blogging I did not know my purpose. It wasn’t until I got baptized and shared that beautiful experience on my blog that I knew what my purpose was. I started sharing my journey, and all that I was learning. In December of 2015 the Lord spoke so clearly to me about starting a new blog with one sole purpose, which is spreading the gospel. Can I be honest? Lately I started to compare myself, my blog, and my ministry with others. I started to get angry, and feel as if I was not doing enough because people were not reading my blog. A couple of weeks ago I was really disturbed by a woman sharing another woman’s status about her journey with Christ, but she cursed in it. I was disturbed because the woman who shared it said she was our future! I felt some type of way because here you have women like me who are truly spreading the word of God, and no one is noticing! 

Here is where my heart check came. Why am I worrying about if people are reading, or seeing what I am posting? Why should I be so worried about everyone seeing my work, and applauding it? Why would I be beating my brains out trying to run my blog like other women? Why would I be trying to take Fancy and Fearless in my own hands? I did all of this because my heart was not right. I was doing all of this for the wrong reasons. I was seeking approval, and applauses from man. I wanted my blog to turn into a place of income, and forgot the sole purpose. That night on September 22, 2016 I repented, and laid out my heart to the Lord. I asked the Lord to create in me a clean heart. This blog belongs to God. Everything I do is for Him, and Him only. I had to die to myself that night. When God gives me messages to spread to the world through this blog it’s for His glory, and not for me to be seen. 

If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his son, purifies us all from sin. If we claim to without sin we decieve oursellves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
— 1 John 1: 6-10 NIV Life Application Study Bible

On Sunday my Pastor spoke on this subject. Having the heart and character for the position that God has appointed us to. I had this post planned before Sunday by the way. Can you say confirmation. I am so grateful that I was alert to understand what was going on within me, and went to the throne of God and asked for forgiveness. I know that with me out of the way the Lord will continue to shine through Fancy and Fearless. I know that my heart will be positioned as a servant, and not a seeker of attention. I know that God has plans for Fancy and Fearless, and I am excited to see them unfold, but this time I will not be involved. I am letting God take the reins! My only job is to be the messenger. I will write with confidence knowing I was set apart, and I am wonderfully made! I have the assurance that God is the owner of Fancy and Fearless, and not Le’nae Chontrice Brooks! I wanted to share this post because I know I am not the only blogger that has experienced this. For all the faith based bloggers out there we have to realize that this space is not about us. We need to forget about the pretty websites and pictures. We need to seek His face daily on what to write about because there is one woman who is reading, and getting transformed! Guess what? It only takes ONE! So, I urge you today to lay anything that is not like God down. I urge you to pray for the right posture as you continue to blog. I ask that you pray for me and all of our sisters that are spreading His word through blogging. Pray that we be on one achord, and have a heart that is chasing after God! Once again I thank you, and I pray that you have a great Monday! 

Faith, LifeLenae Brooks