Bye Bye Inadequacy
I truly did not know that inadequacy was hindering me from A LOT of things until last week. You know how we say “Yes it is there but it’s not that bad.” Well let me tell you that God will reveal to you how bad it is. Let me share with you my story. When I went back to school in 2015 my first stop was Child and Adolescent Studies. I went into Bowie wanting to be a teacher, but what department did I enroll in first? You can read that story here, but halfway in that semester I changed my major to English with a minor in Secondary Education. The transition went so smooth that I knew God was in the midst. Let me add this in before I continue. I wanted to get my B.A in teaching, and go on to get my Masters in counseling. Moving on, so fast forward to November 3, 2016 I was really confused to why I was looking back at the Child and Adolescent Studies program. I am telling God “I am teacher, why am I looking at this major?” I called my sister Sherrie and asked her to pray for me because I was really confused. She asked me “Le’nae, did God tell you to change your major in the first place?” Tears filled my eyes as I said “No, I thought I was supposed to be a teacher. I always wanted to be a teacher.” From that moment I knew I had to seek His face. I went into my car and asked the Lord “What is it that you want me to do? Where should I go?” He said to me so softly “ Le’nae I called you to uproot things. I called you to see beneath the surface. Now what does that sound like to you?” I cried so loudly “A counselor!” I honestly felt inadequate to become a counselor. I doubted that I could do that. I told myself that day that this is not about me, but this is about God. Let’s read some scriptures shall we……
The Lord has given me and you all that we need to do His work. He will not tell us to do something, and not be with us when we do it. He is not a God that abandons His children. Do you feel inadequate? Do you look to God and say “I think you made a mistake. I can not do that.” “How can I do that?” “I am not qualified to do that.” All of this is coming from the enemy. He wants us to doubt ourselves. He wants us to doubt God. Inadequacy can not live in us as we live for God. I want you to write down any situation that made you feel inadequate. Open up to the Lord about how you feel, and then forgive whoever made you feel that way, and also forgive yourself. You let that lie of inadequacy contaminate your mind, and hinder you from your purpose. Forgive and let it all go. Let the shackles fall off, and get a pep in your step. Hold your head up high, and walk with confidence. Say to yourself “I may not have all the answers, but I do know I am qualified, and I have a God who sits high and looks low, and He will equip me for what lies ahead.” No more feeling inadequate, but feel freedom and peace. Embrace who you truly are in His eyes, and that is chosen!
P.S. After the Lord said that to me, a couple of days later I read Jeremiah 1:10 and there was confirmation. The Lord knows us better than we know ourselves. I truly need confirmation sometimes, and His word is always the best confirmation there is.
I pray that if the spirit of Inadequacy is lingering on the inside of you that you come against it with the blood of Jesus. There is nothing more crazy to God than to have His children disqualify themselves when He chose us to begin with. Promise me you will lay out before the Lord and surrender all things that are not of Him, and get refreashed in His presence. Get up knowing that you are a Kings kid, so you can do all things!